Ten movies that people are too stupid to really GET

1. fight club
2. American Beauty
3. Lord of war
4. Requiem for a dream
5. Bulworth
6. What dreams may come
7. Natural born killers
8. A beautiful mind
9. American history X
10. Idiocracy

I got compared to an onion and its not my misshapen head

"you are like an onion with your layers. you're the tough guy, the I'll drink YOU under the table guy, the hey let's get some pizza i got the munchies guy, dad, then underneath EVERYTHING you have this big heart that you have all your layers wrapped around. peel all your damn layers off, and yeah, you're about as intimidating as me after I've been drinking jager all night-- a total cupcake." Apparently that is why im the chick in a relationship? I'm not sure whether to be insulted by this or if its actually one of the nicest most genuine things any ones said about me.

updates

Bitches are fucking nuts. Update right? As I was told today apparently I'm the girl in the relationship. This makes me laugh so hard I can barely contain it. I wish I could deny it... Damn. I like to know whats going on and how people feel about me.. Guilty as charged? Fuck the fuck off I had a witty saying to that but in a bud light and Jameson addled brain I got shit. This is what I get for trying to be a closed off dick? I hate you/love you. You dirty cunt I hope you feel good. Enjoy your bgb or your wanksta. I wanna go break something or fix an engine, beat someone up, fuck a whore, pimp slap someone. 

The road to nowhere leads to me

Some random tidbits today. I fucking hate amazon associate programs that take for fucking ever to get my books here. I'm still trying to figure out why every single mom I come into contact decide they have a crush on me(seeing as how I'm an asshole and a part time dad at best to my own kid.) I got an OZZY song stuck in my head hence the name of the post. My mom is seemingly trying to get me and Molly back together because "I don't care if your sisters have kids or not you and Molly do such a good job of making them I want more from you two." It's one fifteen and my lazy ass hasn't showered yet. I think I got some Jameson left in the freezer maybe I will just catch a tune and watch my neighbors from the porch. "The wreckage of my past keeps haunting me it just wont leave me alone, I still find it all a mystery could it be a dream? The road to nowhere leads to me." What the fuck if I'd have known that I wouldn't be dead now I would've taken better care of my body and tried to you know not break so much shit that randomly gets sore. Everyone has the five year plans and shit and I don't know what the fuck I'm gonna do tomorrow. 

F the F off

Now that I got both sides of me and the lyrics that best represent that.... I feel much better thank you for not asking. Have you ever wondered if a lot of the people that you love are more a matter of circumstance then growing, accepting middle ground, ageing , all that bullshit. Ever wonder if the real reason you love someone is because "oh shit they know me too well now" just hear ( I guess read me out.) The only reason that you "love" someone is because you exposed every shortcoming, every fault, every quirk and your afraid that your just not good enough and now those dirty fuckers can expose you as the fraud that you are? I hate to be the bearer of bad news (aka common sense) every relationship that you ever had is going to end on a bad note somewhere. Sad but true. Here's the trick though,  make sure the ones you are dumb enough to expose yourself to are worth your time. 

the yang to the colin hay lyrics

blood for blood some kind of hate lyrics

There's no way out.

I got some kind of hate,
I got some kind of hate,
I got some kind of hate and I hate the whole human race.

I got some kind of hate,
I got some kind of hate,
I got some kind of hate and I hate the mother fucking human race.

So let's go...

Y'know I got some bad ideas burning deep in my black heart.
Well, evil is as evil's gonna do now
Y'know I try to do my part. .. HA HA!
And I'm a time bomb tickin'... BOOM!
I been tickin' to the sounds of the rock and roll... OH NO!
I think I'm gonna explode... OH NO!
I THINK I'M GONNA EXPLODE!

You call me anti-social, well you're fucking right!
'Cause I hate this goddamned world and everything in sight
and every one in sight.
You call me anti-social, well you're fucking right!
'Cause I hate this mother fucking world and every mother fucker in sight!

I got some kind of hate for the human race.
I never found a place in the human race...
Maybe it's too late for the human race.
I never found a place in the human race...

Sometimes I wish I could just turn my back and run.
Just turn my back and run away.
Sometimes I feel like I just gotta gotta get a gun
and reach the top of the world my own way...

A scratch below the mask

Everything used to come so easily for me, never had to wonder am I doing the right thing it just was what it was and it was AWESOME. Now every step forward, back (*2) I am always questioning my motives. Where is the gray area if you do the right thing for the wrong reasons? I'm tired of people expecting shit out of me, especially when its from people that know me well. Why exactly are you trying to set the bar for how I should act? Wheres that gotten you in the past? Failure? How much of this can really get chalked up to angst anymore? I made my life and for better or worse I have begun to settle for less and that is the scariest thought imaginable in my life. Blah blah random angry(ish) typing "Its perfectly fine to be real real pissed off about what has happened to you. I was real real pissed off at a lot of things that have happened to me. If you need to rant about it, go rant about it. Allow yourself to feel the emotion, let it pass, and then re-center yourself.

But do not do two things:

1. Think anyone else cares

2. Be obsessed with it to the point where it consumes you

I am not saying to bury your emotions. Feel them. But once you have felt them, let them go, and focus on the most important question, "What now?"

30 packs of keystone light and 3 channels on a clear day. Insights on my weirdness

Me and the room mate got in a conversation the other day about people never really connect the dots about the way they ended up. Now granted the following can only account for so much but anyways back on point. When I was a little ass kid maybe 6 or 7 my parents decided that the best thing to do was to buy a camp and go out there along with my older sister(the younger one had yet to be thought of) and watch my parents drink themselves into a fight every weekend and sometimes starting on Thursday night if we were lucky. As funny as that is that is just background. Now here's the funny part amidst a shit storm that was my adolescence came a voracious appetite for reading. Where did that come from you ask? Well that winter was a bitterly cold one even for the tundra with highs in December hovering somewhere south of wanting a good buckshot mouth rinse. So with the options of watching ABC, PBS, or if it was clear out also having the chance to watch CBC or watch my parents get drunk I read. Anything around me. Readers digest at first. Now it's nothing for me to have 1,2,3 books in various levels of being read cover to cover. I guess the point I'm making is two fold. Regardless of how bad you think your parents fucked you up it is your job to deal with that and want to do better, the second is simply that life is beautiful for all the shit that you have to take in and deal with and compartmentalize sometimes all you need is a hammock and a radio to make it better. Point being life is beautiful all the way through instead of dwelling start finding beauty in negative spaces.

Apparently in the rules of fight club they forgot to mention the one about tard brawling

Something something (clap clap) deep in the heart of Texas. Any state that has a long list of accomplishments that include but are not limited to retard fight club, David Koresh, capital punishment of retarded people etc. Cant be that bad right? And for anyone that hasn't gotten their daily dose of missing blond haired Caucasian updates apparently Haleigh's dad is getting married to a 17 year old! Hooray just like so many others it will be only a matter of time before its revealed that mommy chopped her up and threw her in the woods like so many others so why try and hold the suspense? We've seen it played it too many times before.

Beautiful world colin hay

My my my it’s a beautiful world
I like swimming in the sea
I like to go out beyond the white breakers
Where a man can still be free (or a woman if you are one)
I like swimming in the sea.

My my my it’s a beautiful world
I like drinking Irish tea
With a little bit of lapsang souchong
I like making my own tea.

My my my it’s a beautiful world
I like driving in my car
Roll the top down sometimes I travel quite far
Drive to the ocean stare up at the stars
I like driving in my car

All around is anger automatic guns
It’s death in large numbers no respect for women or our little ones
I tried talking to Jesus but He just put me on hold
Said He’d been swamped by calls this week
And He couldn’t shake His cold

And still this emptiness persists
Perhaps this is as good as it gets
When you’ve given up the drink and those nasty cigarettes
Now I leave the party early at least with no regrets
I watch the sun as it comes up I watch it as it sets
Yeah this is as good as it gets.

My my my it’s a beautiful world
I like sleeping with Marie
She is one sexy girl full of mystery
She says she doesn’t love me but she likes my company
For now that’s good enough for me