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Tuesday, February 17, 2009

coming out of my cage and I'm doing just fine

Sometimes it just clicks when its all said and done everything just fell into place just the way that it should've and all it took was turning your back to it. Isn't it funny how sometimes the best solution is to just turn your back and be like fuck this let whatever come may? I've noticed something that has profoundly affected my life lately, beside the obvious I'm always gonna be crazy shit, did you ever notice that people have such a fucked up view of emotional pain? You can hurt some now or you can put it off knowing that later on you are going to get hurt worse because you didn't let it go when you should have? Once I finally started to really grasp that I got a way better understanding of who I am, What I want, and where I want to go. Beyond that I've been thinking lately what an odd collection of music I've been listening to while I wait for my knee to unfuck it self and how there seems to be a very odd eclectic sound track going on in the back of my over fired brain. Seriously just try and grasp the mind that is listening to him join me in death , going to merril bainbridge mouth, to becks sexx laws, to the frays look after you, to TI's live your life, to johnny cashes version of hurt, guns and roses patience, to mendecino county line by willie nelson and to finish it off bother by stonesour. Just listen to them in that order maybe that will give you some insight into an overactive bipolar brain, just maybe.

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  1. You can hurt some now or you can put it off knowing that later on you are going to get hurt worse because you didn't let it go when you should have?

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  3. Have you ever been in a relationship that you knew would end badly but the ride was so exciting and every fight was ok because everything was still new and had that new car smell? Most people have been there and instead of just putting your hands up and just running away stay because the loss of someone regardless of how bad it hurts does not want to lose that person. So you let the arguing and fighting continue holding out hoping that the other person will bend to your will. So I guess what I'm getting at is through reasoning and justifying you end up staying in a relationship longer then you should have in the first place and thus you get hurt a lot worse because you let it drag out instead of taking it head on and breaking up and feeling some pain. Bottom line being instead of taking some pain now people will stay in a relationship they know don't fit for a multitude of reasons and the longer you are in a relationship that doesn't work the harder you get hurt in the end because you were too much of a pussy to call it quits when you saw there was no turning back.

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