Stuck in a moment

i got u2s stuck in a moment in my head and its very fitting. I'm torn between staying here so rod doesn't lose the apt or going to attempt to go somewhere else to unfuck my self. I had every intention of booting out now i don't know if I can do it. Phsysically yes mentally probably not. I've tried so hard to help everyone else with their problems that i just let mine build and compound meh I gotta start figuring out whether i should listen to my head or my heart.